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(Lyrics adjusted by me.)
Oh Shenandoah I long to see thee
Away you rolling river.
Oh Shenandoah I long to see thee.
Away, I’m bound away
Cross the wide Missouri.
Twas 7 long years since last I see thee
Away you rolling river
Twas 7 long years since last I see thee
Away, I’m bound away
Cross the wide Missouri.
So I ran to the corners of the land
And the sky did lay his hand so hard upon me.
There I lay, 20 nights and 20 days
And every day it seemed to rain
And I felt your waters on me.
In 7 more years, I won’t forget thee.
Away you rolling river.
In 7 more years, I won’t forget thee.
Away, I’m bound away
Cross the wide Missouri.
Well…. I’ve started adding lyrics to videos- what do you think? Some say this is good & some say it is bad.
sing and gleam, mountain stream
I know where you flow
falling down, losing ground
crash the world below
lose the dream
of purity you wanted me to bring
lose the dream
there’s nothing sacred now
something fails, yet still goes on
I was in the box, but now it’s gone
like a swirl, like a wave
changing me inside
suck me down, underneath
this is where I’ll hide
on and on
to bluer things you wanted me to bring
on and on
your arrow in my hand
something dies, yet still goes on
I was in the box, but now it’s gone
waterfall over me
holding up my hands
blue and cold, touching me
I don’t understand
how I feel
I waited for you everyday alone
standing there
there’s nothing certain now
losing form, yet flowing on
I was in the box, but now its gone
And just in case you enjoy giving people money…
Grass is green
A sunny day
Come outside alone let’s play!
Slip and slide
The riverside
Should we take a water ride now?
I love you so
Let’s fly away
Clouds stretch into another day.
You don’t tell me you need me
You lay my shoes down on the floor
I ask you why but I won’t get an answer
Still I’m not alone anymore.
Clouds fly
I chase them why?
Come my friend let’s run so high!
You and I
Together we
Crawl across the grass so green oh!
You take my hand
We roll and sway
Clouds stretch into another day.
You don’t tell me you need me
You lay my shoes down on the floor
I ask you why but I won’t get an answer
Still I’m not alone anymore.
Sun shines
The future climbs
High above us like a vine.
We two
Upon the grass
Covered by a space so vast oh!
You take my hand
We roll and sway
Down by the river waiting for the rain.
You don’t tell me you need me
You lay my shoes down on the floor
I ask you why but I won’t get an answer
Still I’m not alone anymore.
Feel him come up from the water
Feel him standing there against the wall.
Now his shadow fall upon you
Like an animal you learn to crawl!
Did he even know you now? Did he even know?
Watch him take three steps towards you
Turn your head and listen for the pain
Feel his shadow crawl upon you
Like an animal he make it Rain!!!!
Did he even know you now? Did he even know?
Nobody knows you now. Lost in a world of stars.
No one can feel for you when, nobody here knows who you are….
You are the dark, you are the pull, the hands, the throat, the animal, you scream.
You’re trying hard to see but guided only by the light within a dream.
Dark stars throw themselves upon you
Animal rain down from the sky
Run so fast towards the water
Can you make it home before you the light?
Did he even know you now? Did he even know?
Sometimes you love me but its wrong
Still I beg for you to stay.
You can only take me for so long
Til you turn and walk away.
Half the time, if I let my mind go freely
I can see the world in aqua blue.
Pull me down with you into the deep we’ll die there nearly
Then I feel I’m really loving you.
Sometimes I start to go insane
And it makes you feel confused.
You’ll get your things and leave so fast
That I end up feeling used.
Half the time, give me love you know I’ll take it
Spilling down the floor in aqua blue.
Pull me down beneath the waves until you start to break me
Then I feel I’m really loving you.
Walking by the river with you
You seem to love me too but
You’ll go away you always do.
You look at me with ice blue eyes
Like a stone upon the stairs.
Even if I said goodbye for good
Well you wouldn’t even care.
Half the time when I look at you I’m smiling
In your eyes a world of aqua blue.
Pull me down beneath and we’ll begin the reconciling
Then I feel I’m really loving you.
Do you hear all the voices?
They converge like a cloud
Clutch my head and I hide in a corner
They follow me follow me round.
They say life is a quick dream
Now it’s time to awake
Let your legs carry you to the river
And wash away every mistake.
You could fly!!!!
Watch my eyes in the mirror
How they float to the side
I can feel them behind me they stand
And they place all the thoughts in my mind.
They say life is an imprint
On a window so clear
First you have to release from your body
And then you’ll know everything’s real.
You could fly!!!!
Please, I just want to stay
There’s a man who I could love again
So I forced my hands thru the dirt
But what do you feel feel feel feel?
I feel hurt.
So you’ll come to the river
We’ll release all the pain
Like a shell sinking down to the bottom
Our hands falling on you like rain.
You could fly!!!!!
Please stop let me think twice
There could be fire, a new paradise
I dreamt red drops dripping like rain
But what do you feel feel feel feel?
I feel pain.
I shouldn’t be sad. I’m having the “You have no place in this world to call home” transit and everything is happening as God intended but still….
There is no place in this world to call home.
The weird part is in the absence of any home how much my life has expanded.
I just got ‘home’ from performing on two different stages and walking around downtown by myself at night. Walking thru sketchy areas at night has become a slight addiction. Why do they say you’re not supposed to do that? So far I haven’t found out.
But I wonder if this growth is leading anywhere or if life will be a never ending series of random events and people. I should be patient since it’s only been a month and a half since I moved out and the first month was spent trying not to die of heartbreak.
It’s just that there is no one to tell anything to. Not that there really was before since James didn’t like me to talk. But even writing in journals to yourself feels different when you are part of a home and a family. I can’t really write in journals anymore because I’m too unsettled and at the same time have more happiness than ever before.
If happiness means a high and fluttery feeling.
But I also had happiness in my old life when I would cry in bed everyday. It was a different kind of happiness though, like the way you feel in a soft pink egg. Even in sadness there was a feeling of peace.
Our spirit is made of fire and air. It propels us outwards & forwards, towards people and the future. Our soul is made of water and earth, a soft gooey dough that absorbs all experiences. Happy or sad, all experiences become meaningful when they encounter the soul’s soft body.
In my old life my spirit was trapped. Now it’s free. Yet my soul is nowhere to be found. Friends are not family. You can’t cry around them and if you do it’s some big fucking deal where you have to apologize afterwards. You can’t share the minutia of life that is the soul’s food. You can’t gorge on donuts and sink into a coma. You have to be on and up. Fire & air.
And I’m grateful for the newness. But it’s hard to settle down. I dance all the time. Sometimes I run rather than walk. Without a soul, you have so much energy.
But this is my predestined time of wandering the earth like a spirit. I need to make the best of my “There is no place for you to call home” transit and have faith that life will eventually congeal.
In astrology, the sun is your spirit and the moon is your soul. My moon lives in the house of marriage so getting unmarried was disruptive soul-wise. However, there is a little trick with this placement where it can also mean having an emotional relationship with The Public, a gooey blob of unknown minds.
So in the absence of a James, I started sharing minutia from my life on facebook. Which caused people to attack me for being an attention seeking whore. But I blocked them for being stupid. Because it isn’t attention the moon craves. It’s ooey gooey connection.
It’s not so much circumstances that are bugging me out as the questions… is love real, is home real, is anything real? What is there in life that weighs more than paper? I thought I would have a family in eternity. I even thought my house would be with me in heaven. When I was painting its walls, I felt I was building something permanent.
Oops.