First bring the needle out Tighten up the tourniquet And now you feel the waters flow And now the whole world grows so wet
And now how blood is beautiful Liquid ruby through your veins and I will love you fire to fire Desire. You make me feel pain.
Falling back again With your eyes an inch a way And somehow turn from day to night Then somehow turn from night to day
And now you light your pipe again And now you speak your words they’re never true You feel the room spin round and round Theres only me and you and now
How red is beautiful Liquid ruby through my veins And I, I feel the world dissolve resolve You make me feel pain.
First bring the needle out Slide it through my eye oh I oh I How I could live for this So high above the world I fly I fly
I’ll love you fire to fire And I will love you flame to flame And I oh will I marry you, I do You make me feel pain.
* I have another song named Paradise too. Is that okay? Actually Paradise is one of my favorite words & I am thinking I might write a bunch more songs with this name if it doesn’t present practical problems….
I’m adddicted to you Like a bullet I fly I feel red in my head And a fire in my mind Could you tell me what the ring around your neck is for?
Could I knock you around? Can I call on the phone? Let me come on your feet Let me come in your home Let’s get it done I don’t know what we could be waiting for If you gotta a minute I could oooo yeah!
I’m addicted to you I got something inside It needs somewhere to go Wanna go for a ride? I could tell you’re an original & maybe more
Could there be other men? Well there maybe could be But right now it feels like You got something i need What’s in your hand I don’t know what you could be waiting for If you gotta minute I could ooooo yeah!
I’m addicted to you Wanna push you around Put my hands on your neck Falling into the ground I could swirl you in a bucket knock it on the floor
Beating onto your chest Feeling something inside And now I gotta go Something don’t feel right Maybe this was just a slip a cok and nothing more Only for a minute I could oooo yeah!
Place your finger on the window seal tap it three times three. Lift your eyes towards the skies and tell me what you see.
I can see him blowing in again, glowering like the corn. Wrap the black around me I won’t take it anymore.
Do you think I’ll feel this way again? Do you think I’ll feel the same? Black clouds coming down and all I can feel again is rain.
Half of life is memory. Half of life is storm. Tell yourself it’s changing when it’s only shifting form.
Half of life is far away, misty and unclear. Feel the fog surround you but that’s only when he’s near.
Do you think you’ll feel this way again? Do you think you’ll feel the same? Black strings coming down and all that I can feel is rain.
You’ll let me know somehow the ways That you’ll allow you know I never disappoint. A cloud for you I’ll be a fog a mystery To fade then vanish to a point.
Place your hand upon my forehead now Turn me three times round. Stars behind my eyes and then I’m falling on the ground.
Take the handkerchief away from me- I know where he goes. I know where the bodies lie and I know all the little things they hold.
Do you think you’ll feel this way again? Do you think you’ll feel the same? Black strings coming down and all that I can feel is rain.
I feel embarrassed by this song but it is a dream song & I just try to write those down without judgement. So I understand if you don’t want to throw a nickel into my jar, but if you do here it is…
This is a song I heard in a dream so those I usually just write down without judgment. It is different because at the time I was obsessively surrounding myself only with the colors white, yellow & gold in the hopes that they would protect me from black swirls. Did they? It is hard to say. The black storms still occurred but I got way more help from fb friends than I could have imagined (gold) and was able to learn new skills quicker than I thought possible (yellow.) So I didn’t control the whole universe, but it’s still something.
All the winds were blowing And their thoughts were filling my mind Everybody watching Looking to the sky for a sign Water started rolling Changing everything that it touched Filled our hearts with knowing All the things that hurt us too much On high on high on high On high on high on high.
Caught up in the weakness Thought it was chance I could take Till I saw him coming Then I knew I made a mistake. But were there people watching? All these thoughts were filling my mind Could there be something starting To bring us in a new wave of time? On high on high on high on high on high on high
Are there people watching? Feel them there each time that you move Reaching out for something But somehow always missing the groove Maybe there was something Something that he couldn’t explain Dipping in your fingers And feeling just a little more pain.
Still the winds are blowing Living in a world of their own Once they get it rolling Then we’ll see the reason to go In me blue was flowing All its voices filling my mind Left me with the knowing That there was something better to find On high on high on high On high on high on high.
In case you would like to donate a drop of money for music. I hope that in the future, when people think of me they will also think of money. * * *
When I found myself suddenly alone with no income, selling my possessions became the obvious choice, especially since that would make things easier if I ended up on the streets. Luckily one of my obsessions is glass. I love its clear gelatinous nature & it happens to sell rather well on ebay which is a ray of hope. I assume my ebay identity is julienaklei…. not that I am necessarily encouraging anyone to go to my ebay store- it is just me selling everything I own, not my crowning achievement per se.
A glass lady bug. I love vivid orange glass especially. So refreshing.
A “WV Day” piece from Blenko glass. These are limited edition & so sell for a lot of money.
A dog & a “pink ice” bottle.
A glass key chain with the letter W on it. For George W Bush.
A glass mushroom with a red cap.
Business cards. I figured I could also do astrology readings to support myself. I tuck one into the box of everything I sell on ebay.
This is sort of a picture of Patton. I think if he were a human he would like sports.
You can leave if you want to but don’t look back I’m warning you- You won’t like the way that things have changed. Two black leaves will be my eyes, the winds will roll, the water rise- All the things that time can rearrange.
If you go. These are the things you should know. Backwards the water will flow. Eyes in skull. Bouncing ball.
You were mine. We lived in a house made of time. The prayers and the sayings would rhyme. Dream you feel. Not quite real.
In the end you were a man, you stood there on your own. Always smiling like a friend yet somehow quite alone.
You can leave if you want to but don’t look back I’m warning you- You won’t like the way that things have changed. Two black leaves will be my eyes, the winds will roll, the water rise- All the things that time can rearrange.
If you see a picture that holds you and me, A pitcher of pure family. Dark things hide. Stay inside.
But the flame. He lived in a cage with no name. The day he was born he was blamed. Bouncing ball. Animal.
In the end, he was a fire he stood there on his own. Worlds would disappear inside him Who knows where they go?
You can leave if you want to but don’t look back I’m warning you- You won’t like the way that things have changed. Two black leaves will be my eyes, the winds will roll, the water rise- All the things that time can rearrange.
No. Please don’t go. You don’t know how dark it will be down inside that hole. No. Don’t go away. There are those who walk & talk but inside they are not the same.
You don’t know. You’ve not seen eyes where nothing there behind them lies. Reflecting distant galaxies absorbing all your fantasies. Until they leave you all behind.
And you wonder what you did down here alive with all your time.
Because they say hi and they say hi and they say hi and they say hi- That’s what they do, that’s what they do, that’s what they do.
And they won’t die, no they won’t die, no they won’t die, no they won’t die- They live from you, they live from you, they live from you. And then you sink into the blue.
Like a friend. You follow till you’ve lost yourself around too many bends. Smile. Play pretend. Dance or cry it doesn’t change what happens in the story’s end.
You don’t know. You’ve lived in truth where trees and birds protected you. But in the city there she lies the light of towers in her eyes. She knows what happens in the end.
Did you think you were the first time that she found a funny friend?
Because she’ll say hi and she’ll say hi and she’ll say hi and she’ll say hi- That’s what they do, that’s what they do, that’s what they do.
And they won’t die, no they won’t die, no they won’t die, no they won’t die- They live from you, they live from you, they live from you. And then they sink into the blue.
Faces fade into the black. Words that can’t be taken back. A pact that flows into a hole. Now you know the place where all the dreams that die will go & go.
Because she’ll say hi and she’ll say hi and she’ll say hi and she’ll say hi- That’s what they do, that’s what they do, that’s what they do.
And they won’t die, no they won’t die, no they won’t die, no they won’t die- They live from you, they live from you, they live from you. And then they sink into the blue.
First the sound of laughing. Life is all around. I lie. Close my eyes again and I Feel it falling down. I fly.
I can see behind me. I see you. I remember then when you Were my only blue.
All the waves come crashing To my mind that’s how it goes. I was stationed like a pool. You were free to go.
Falling down into me Now I can’t explain why I’m Reaching out to touch your face Touch me back and then I fly.
Hover in the air to watch you there. You were getting bored the more that I tried. And my arms blew all around you like a storm and nothing more. You stayed inside.
Raining down again I try To remember all you said. But the pieces never fit Piling up inside my head.
Close my eyes again and I I see you. Take me back again to when You’re my only blue.
