Tag: sun
Father, I need to sit.
There’s all of this blood down here- nobody will tell me what it is.
Father, what is the time?
There’s all of this blood down here- nobody will tell me if it’s mine.
You built a tower in my heart just like a paradise
I laid me back to watch so warm in the sand.
Clouds flew above me light flashing out of their eagle eyes
Now I can feel those cold things starting again.
Father, where are my hands?
I need to touch my eyes- something tells me they are hurting me again.
Father, am I lying in bed?
Why are the curtains drawn? What is this thing upon my head?
You built a tower in a tower in my heart just like a paradise
I laid me back to watch so warm in the sand.
Sun shimmered on my body like I was a pegasi
But now I can feel those cold things starting again.
Father, why are the curtains drawn?
So many things to do. I can’t remain in here too long.
Father, I need to ask
Of all the things you’ve done, which ones are the ones that you’d take back?
You built a world around my heart just like a paradise
I laid me back to watch so warm in your hand.
Cities they swirled around me like they was a race of lights
But now I can feel those cold things starting again.
All of the men in the world lined up side by side
A bundle of twigs they wait for the flame.
Dance by the fire and you will realize
A burning man will never feel the pain.
Father, I need to sit.
There’s all of this blood down here- nobody will tell me what it is.
Father, what is the time?
There’s all of this blood down here- nobody will tell me if it’s mine.
You built a tower in my heart just like a paradise
I laid me back to watch so warm in the sand.
Clouds flew above me light flashing out of their eagle eyes
Now I can feel those cold things starting again.
Father, where are my hands?
I need to touch my eyes- something tells me they are hurting me again.
Father, am I lying in bed?
Why are the curtains drawn? What is this thing upon my head?
You built a tower in a tower in my heart just like a paradise
I laid me back to watch so warm in the sand.
Sun shimmered on my body like I was a pegasi
But now I can feel those cold things starting again.
Father, why are the curtains drawn?
So many things to do. I can’t remain in here too long.
Father, I need to ask
Of all the things you’ve done, which ones are the ones that you’d take back?
You built a world around my heart just like a paradise
I laid me back to watch so warm in your hand.
Cities they swirled around me like they was a race of lights
But now I can feel those cold things starting again.
All of the men in the world lined up side by side
A bundle of twigs they wait for the flame.
Dance by the fire and you will realize
A burning man will never feel the pain.
How am I doing? Well, I’ve conquered the world of vice and now I can afford to buy a car. A few months back I was on the verge of homelesshess. Draw your own conclusions.
So what’s next for the woman who has turned Pure Evil into her little lap dog?
The World of the Sun.
The most wonderful thing about life is how there are infinite worlds to conquer. You can never exhaust them. A new world is a new mathematics. Everything changes. I love it. Every world is lucent and perfectly crystallized. It’s own rules. It’s own morality. I love it so much. Nothing makes me more excited than preparing to enter a new world. I am cleaning my apartment right now in anticipation.
I always thought of a home as a spaceship that lets you travel between worlds. You program it for the new world you want to enter and it flies you there. The most exciting thing ever.
Who knows what the future holds & when I’ll have to face the plane of survival again. God probably plunges all of us there periodically to give our red a tune up. But for this one moment, I am relatively safe. Safer than before. My apartment is warm. Warm air is the ultimate luxury.
And all through no virtue of my own. Quite the opposite. In fact, when I was living out my own version of virtue- working hard, setting sights low, inflicting pain on self when possible- I was sinking the fastest. Hard work can’t save you once you get too close to the realm of slaves. Cause money comes from other people. If money is about anything, it’s about social intelligence, not work. I still don’t have any of that though. I just temporarily hit some good luck.
Had I been saved by my own efforts, perhaps I’d emerge from the pit with a different philosophy. But as it is, I move forward with the feeling that a person’s own efforts have little impact on their destiny. It’s external influences that make or break us. We are one, they are many & hence far more powerful.
So while some see responsibility as focusing on what you can control, to me it means trying to befriend those things more powerful than you.
Like the sun. He is the King of our Solar System.
Grass is green
A sunny day
Come outside alone let’s play!
Slip and slide
The riverside
Should we take a water ride now?
I love you so
Let’s fly away
Clouds stretch into another day.
You don’t tell me you need me
You lay my shoes down on the floor
I ask you why but I won’t get an answer
Still I’m not alone anymore.
Clouds fly
I chase them why?
Come my friend let’s run so high!
You and I
Together we
Crawl across the grass so green oh!
You take my hand
We roll and sway
Clouds stretch into another day.
You don’t tell me you need me
You lay my shoes down on the floor
I ask you why but I won’t get an answer
Still I’m not alone anymore.
Sun shines
The future climbs
High above us like a vine.
We two
Upon the grass
Covered by a space so vast oh!
You take my hand
We roll and sway
Down by the river waiting for the rain.
You don’t tell me you need me
You lay my shoes down on the floor
I ask you why but I won’t get an answer
Still I’m not alone anymore.
My recording machine broke & I don’t know what to do about that so at the moment I am just gonna record songs on my phone as videos cuz I don’t know what else to do.
Don’t be sad you’re never alone.
Take my hand why would you say that now?
Cause you could only love me when I was gone.
Close my eyes I try to fight it but I
Something inside me knows where you go
Daylight comes I wait for the change
Wrap your golden arms around me why
Could you only love me when I was strange?
Laugh and smile I try to hide it but I
Something inside me knows where you go
So I’ll try to run away
It’s the hardest thing to do
I want to cling to you tell you all the things
That you don’t care about
But if I decide to stay
Just to watch you slip away
And all the while the orange
Bleeding out.
You don’t come and then come the moon.
So he fall like fire upon me but why
Could you only love me when I was new?
Drag myself towards the mirror help me
Something inside me knows where you go
Holding hands with the King of Spades
And the sun float by in a yellow parade
He rose, he came, he saw into the flow.
Sun drop low and it turn to gray
All the shadows stretch and they reach away
To who? To why? To what? You’ll never know.
Tell yourself it’s enough when baby
There are three men waiting to kill you
And if he isn’t tough enough to fill you
You gotta let him go.
Cause when night fall like a sheet of black
Then you’re going to need someone
Don’t waste your time on a man whose having fun.
King of Spades lying on his back
When you leave the room with his eyes on your back
He rose, he came, he saw into the flow.
Mirror leaning against the wall
Till you throw your brush watch it crumble and fall
To scream, to feel, to cry and to explode.
Then you tell yourself it’s enough when baby
There are three men waiting to end you
And if he isn’t tough enough to defend you
You gotta let him go.
Cause when night come and the stars appear
Then you’ll need a place to run
Don’t waste your time on a man whose having fun.
King of Spades purple robe, eyes at night, shine and glow
Spread the deck tell him everything you know.
Eyes that shine, circling, oh God I can’t remember anything
Except I wanted you to come and carry me home.
So I tell myself it’s enough when baby
There are three men waiting to bleed me
And if you isn’t tough enough to need me
I gotta let you go.
Cause when night come and the chill appear
The game has just begun
I can’t waste my time on a man whose having fun.
Close your eyes
Fantasize a place that’s safe and warm in your mind
A yellow world from the storm all the time
Arms. No more harm today.
Sometimes I go fly so far away.
So I’lll sit and day dream maybe
Hiding in the sun
Cold comes to remind you that he’s only having fun.
Someone deal you a heart & you play it
Because you wanted a game
But in the end it’s pain
In the end it’s pain.
Lie me down
Spill my mind to the ground
Roll over me
Show me everything I want to see.
Hands. Wander thru the day
Sometimes we go fly so far away.
So I’lll sit and day dream maybe
Hiding in the sun
Cold comes to remind you that he’s only having fun.
Someone deal you a heart & you play it
Because you wanted a game
But in the end it’s pain
In the end it’s pain.
Whisper in my ear you’re blurry now
I wanted something but dont know how
Dont know how to try.
Everyone said why do you feel this way
When he could be the man
Who changes everything
But I dont know I fly.
So I’lll sit and day dream maybe
Hiding in the sun
Cold comes to remind you that he’s only having fun.
Someone deal you a heart & you play it
Because you wanted a game
But in the end it’s pain
In the end it’s pain.
Hi…. You know I am realizing one of my huge problems in life is being too hyper and impatient. I can’t bear taking more than 5 minutes to record a song & during that time I also managed to destroy a frying pan I really loved by setting it on fire, losing one bowl of macaroni and cheese by dropping it on the floor, one box of straws by dropping it on floor and breaking my headphones all because I couldn’t resist trying to eat dinner and record at the same time. And I melted a grill lighter on a lit stovetop.
The world was cold there was no easy place.
The world was flat nowhere to hide.
The winds would blow in a disorienting way,
Then they’d grow still from time to time.
The people run to you with smiles upon their faces
Then they twirl and disappear into a hat.
You were supposed to know which words were true
And which ones you should not believe but how could you know that?
The grass was green a checkerboard that never ended.
The men were tall and thin like stilts.
They danced so fancy with their bodies twirled and bended
Then they’d tip their hat and like a leaf they’d wilt.
They left green hearts upon the grass where you could see them
But it wasn’t clear what any of them meant.
Reach down to touch one and it disappears beneath your hand
But maybe that was never their intent.
The sun would rise while you were still asleep
To fill the air with yellow clowns.
Their yellow faces through your sleepy eyes looked queer
And so you’d close your eyes and lie back on the ground.
You’d wait til noon when you could see the men come running
On their skinny legs beneath the happy sun.
Maybe I’ll watch them dance and clap for them for one more day
A seal inside their yellow tent of fun.
But when the night came there was no relief.
It poured down like a jet black wave.
You shook with cold and an emotion much like grief
As though your feelings made a difference to a bear inside his cave.
The stars were shining but too far away to hear you
And the greatest bear was nowhere to be found.
You tried to think there must be something that you missed
But all your thoughts would squirt then dribble to the ground.
So close your eyes and let the memories come back
To spread like ink upon a page.
It could be that life is just a dream that we can’t understand
And you must lie unmoving while the stars dance in their cage.
Grass is green
A sunny day
Come outside alone let’s play!
Slip and slide
The riverside
Should we take a water ride now?
I love you sooo
Let’s fly away
Clouds blur into another day.
You don’t tell me you need me
You lay my shoes down on the floor.
I ask you why but I won’t get an answer
Still I’m not alone anymore.
Clouds fly
I chase them, why?
Come my friend let’s run so high!
You and I
Together we
Crawl across the grass so green oh!
You take my hand
We roll and sway
Clouds stretch into another day.
You don’t tell me you need me
You lay my shoes down on the floor.
I ask you why but I won’t get an answer
Still I’m not alone anymore.
Sun shines
The future climbs
High above us like a vine.
We two
Upon the grass
Covered by a space so vast oh!
Please take my hand
Let’s roll and sway
Down by the river waiting for the rain.
You don’t tell me you need me
You lay my shoes down on the floor.
I ask you why but I won’t get an answer
Still I’m not alone anymore.